yes, please also note that i know how to spell my own name.

God is throwing me a major curveball. and He's teaching me a big lesson on faith. I'm the type who likes to have everything in control, to know exactly what's happening, and to have a plan for every last detail (in the myers-briggs personality type, i'm a very strong J) . I thought i was getting there until last night, and now everything is up in the air again. I feel like this is out of my hands and a time for me to learn what trust means, and it sure gives me a new perspective on Hebrews 11:1. I'm sure of what I hope for in our fellowships, I'm not certain on how we're getting there. But I'm certain of God knowing how we're getting there, even though it is unseen to me. That last part is the most difficult part for me, and i can feel this knot of anxiousness in my stomach. Talking to pdan and some deacons last night helped quell some of that - i'm thankful for their insight and encouragement. I think I just need some time to sort this out in my mind, and with God. It was a sudden blindsided hit last night, and my mind is overwhelmed by trying to process it all, trying to have a plan, trying to figure out how to communicate everything to everyone, trying to determine if we even need to change anything. i wish i could be like evie in out of this world, point my fingers together and freeze time. that would be awesome :) then again, i'd be half-alien. anyway, i'm being stretched. that is for sure.