even though jean has vehemently denied ever taking me as her PT patient, even back in undergrad, i think i became her very FIRST patient! :) and i promise, i'm trying to do my exercises.

i've been listening to "knees to the earth" non-stop at work because i need to learn it for amy & mike's wedding. anyone have chords to the song? the chords i have right now are difficult to figure out, especially since they don't match up to the lyrics and i'm unfamiliar with the song. or hm. after listening to it hundreds of times today, maybe it won't be as hard :)

ev was showing someone's xanga, which is pretty much a shrine to this person's boyfriend and their (only few months long) relationship. i was shocked at the lavish lifestyle, adorning each other with lots of designer gifts, and even just how into each other these people are, even after dating for only a few months. it's scary how someone can be so obsessed and revolve their entire life around another human being - people are fickle, God is not. People always change, God does not. People are finite, God is not. Don't get me wrong - I'm not trying to judge these people, but it's just a whole other lifestyle that i haven't been exposed to much, and I'm thankful that i was never sucked into it, and that i know there's so much more to life than money, success, and fame.

my cell group is currently going through "Celebration of Disciplines" - this week we're on the chapter on meditation. it's interesting to read about because i don't do it often, if ever. i think it's because i'm the type of person who always has to be doing something, that sitting still and trying to listen and fill my mind with God and His Word is difficult for me. I end up falling alseep or my mind starts to wander to other thoughts. This is definitely a discipline that i need to work on more...

my surgery is in a month, and the more i think about it, the more i'm not looking forward to it. (well, who ever looks forward to surgery? :) the rehab post-surgery last time was so difficult and painful for me, i remember crying out of sheer pain every time i went to PT for the first month. but i'm doing rehab pre-surgery (see! i'm doing my exercises!) so i think it should be better this time. I feel like i need to apologize to al & jenie ahead of time since i'll be a lame duck for at least a few weeks, especially since my parents won't even be here for the surgery to help me around the first few days. i'll probably take a week off of work, and then probably work from home for at least another week, if not two. still need to work it out with my boss. but i guess God is really going to provide me with the time to force me to meditate more :)

i've decided to go to the wedding in LA in june, even if i'll still be on crutches and be somewhat immobile. besides, it'll give me an excuse to visit reni & baby! :) maybe i'll just fly. hm... i'll figure it out eventually.

okay, this was a really random mish-mash of thoughts.