i don't know what i did in PT yesterday, but something aggravated my knee. i cried myself to sleep last night and i can barely walk today. actually i think it's the step - they have me step onto the step (you know, those long rectangular plastic steps that ppl use for exercise) with no risers, so it's at the lowest, and then bend my knee to step back down. i can step up fine, but trying to bend my knee to step down causes this searing pain in my knee. it's the one exercise i dread the most, so i've been kind of cheating it in the past. i told my PT yesterday that it was hurting me a lot to do the exercise, so she had an aide watch me do it. so i actually had to do the exercise without cheating. the aide had me try various things to make it less strenuous on the knee, but everything hurt. finally she told me stop - she said my form and everything was correct (i guess sometimes ppl use bad form, etc and that can cause pain) so she'd tell my PT.

anyway, i see my doctor again today, and if my complaints about my pain fall on deaf ears again, i'm about ready to throw in the towel with him and find a different doctor. anyone know a good orthopedic surgeon in the south bay they can recommend to me?

**edit: update. went to the doctor, and finally he listened to me. no deaf ears this time, thank God. he can't figure out why i still have so much pain in my knee - i'm two months post-op and he told me i shouldn't be having this much pain (yeah - real helpful, like i didn't know that). anyway i have a lot of pain in the two areas where the screws are, so he tried to numb those two areas (which freaking hurt. the needle poking didn't hurt, it was the intense burning from the numbing medicine as it went into my body) to see if that helped. it didn't, so basically there's not much else he can do just by examining my knee in his office.

so now what? he told me the only other thing he can do is to go back into my knee... so i asked him if there were any other options before that. so here i am, with another prescription to get an MRI again. another $2k dinged against my health insurance (which I now believe is the best thing on the face of the earth). he told me to cancel all PT again until after the MRI results come in since PT seems to be aggravating me so much. he doesn't think MRI will show much, but it's worth a shot. and if the MRI shows nothing, he'll have to do a scope and open my knee again. fun. the knee saga continues...

SKIING IS EVIL.