i think i'm getting depressed over my knee condition. i've been so drained over the past six weeks, that all i want to do every night is go home and sleep. i don't want to hang out with people - thinking about hanging out with a large crowd of people scares and tires me. heck, olivia came home this week and i've already turned down hanging out with her for two nights because i just want to go home. i think i've cried more in the past six weeks than literally probably in the last 10 years combined (and the last 10 years include my first ACL surgery). my knee is still swollen, it hurts to walk on it, pt has been discouraging, this whole experience has just been so tough.

i can't believe something like the physical condition of my knee can affect me so much, but it has. i'm just exhausted. God, i just want a new knee that works. please?