well, i'm one week post-op and it's been quite a ride. the post-op this time around has been infinitely far worse than the one on my left knee. i'm seriously living through hell right now. the first night was pure torture because i couldn't take any painkillers due to the fact that i was throwing up all day from the anesthesia and could not even keep a sip of water down (i was even dry-heaving), so the intense throbbing and burning in my knee kept me from getting any sleep at all. after that i was maxing out on my vicodin after a nurse who called me from the hospital told me to take the max amount allowed within the shortest time period (2 pills every 4 hours) because i was suffering so much, and even then i haven't been able to handle the excruciating pain. sleeping is even more miserable because i can't move my entire leg. i also get this incredibly sharp shooting pain that runs all the way from my very lower back down to my toes that hurts so much it involuntarily makes me cry. it usually happens when i try to turn my leg or when i'm standing with my crutches. i definitely did not have this shooting pain after the same surgery on my left knee. there's seriously something different about this surgery than the acl reconstruction on my left knee because i was never in this much agony, pain, and torture post-op last time. this time around, one week later, and i can't even sit up on the couch - it hurts that much. what's even weirder is on my left knee, i used an autograft - my own hamstring tendon. this time around, i chose to use an allograft - a cadaver graft, which supposedly should have been an easier recovery. :(

on top of that, my allergies are in full bloom and have caused me to get sick, complete with sore throat, sinus clogging, lots of sneezing and lots of snot.

anyway i don't want to whine, but i'm not exactly the happiest of campers right now.

if anything, i know God has a reason for having me go through all of this. i really hate not being able to take care of myself and having to ask people to do everything for me and being a general nuisance to them. i try to do as much as possible on my own, but it's just so hard. but i'll get through this. God got me through it last time and He'll get me through it this time.

anyway, I'm supposed to go into the office next week, but i'm positive i won't be able to drive, and heck i can't even sit in a chair right now. we'll see, i'll have to talk to my boss since i know he's not so keen on ppl working from home.

one last thing... in the span of 6 days, i managed to finish both seasons 1 and 2 of 24. :)