well, i was insistent on seeing if i could drive this week, so on monday night i hopped over to the car and sat in my car with the intent of driving around the block to see how much i could handle. so i managed to get in and shut my car door. i sat there for about a minute, and then got back out without even turning the car on or opening the garage door. there's no way i'm even close to driving yet.

i went to my first PT appt yesterday. i took vicodin before going and it still hurt like mad. the pt said i'm in pretty bad condition, i have a whopping 10 degree (when trying to straighten) to 50 degree (when trying to bend) range. that's pretty horrible. the knee is still swollen and my scars are still very sensitive. i thought it'd be easier this time around, with using a cadaver and rehabbing my knee completely before going into surgery, but for some reason i feel like this has been a more painful experience than last time. i get this horrible shooting pain from the right side of my knee to my toes when i try to turn my knee inward (ie trying to sleep on my left side) or when i massage the scar on the very far right or the area around it. not sure what's causing it, but it HURTS.

seriously. i'm never skiing again. this is not worth it.